FROM THE VIDEO:
“There are three things that always feel VERY WRONG in my life when I’m symptomatic… I either think something is wrong with my job, my relationship, or my living situation. It’s almost like clockwork. The rest of the time, my relationship is awesome, my job is just fine, and I don’t mind where I live. This has been incredibly difficult for those around me to understand.
When I’m unwell, the feelings that something is wrong with my life get so real I can taste them. It would be like someone punching me in the stomach in front of an audience and then everyone trying to convince me it didn’t happen – when I can feel the wind knocked out of me. It doesn’t matter how many books I’ve read or how perfect my meds are… There are still times where I can’t see things clearly and this is simply part of the illness.
The one area of my life where I have so much regret and have done the greatest damage has probably been my relationships. I can look back on a train-wreck of collateral damage and broken hearts.
Today I’d like to share some of the reasons why I ended relationships, how I see those situations years later, and how I’ve worked with my current partner to stop this cycle from continuing. I know there are so many confused, hurt, and angry people out there who have been on the receiving end of a Bipolar relationship. Please know that I’m not minimizing hurtful or abusive behavior by any means with this video. My goal is to share some of my relationship experiences and help fill in some gaps of understanding.
I’ll even include some tips I have for maintaining a healthy relationship towards the end of this video. If you aren’t well, please come back and watch this video at a later time. When I’m not well, I’m just not open to advice and could miss something very important.”